18/365 – ” How would the situation change if your mood was different? ”
Since having my plans upended due to COVID, I’ve been fighting an uphill battle against a grumpy mood.
Despite upgrading myself from the back of a rental car to a friend’s sofa – Despite being quarantined in community rather than in solitude – and despite having access to beautiful nature and a hot tub while in quarantine! – my experience has been tainted by the rusted remains of the pre-quarantine story I was hoping to live out.
Moods, as opposed to Feelings, are a generalized state of being, not tied to any singular experience – but rather an ambient state, coloring all of our experiences.
Recognizing that I’m in a bad mood rather than a bad situation has been an interesting exercise in self-awareness.